Long time, no....

I am sorry about the silence, but there has not been much to report I am afraid. There has been some illness in the family, causing my wife to be away for some time. I speak frequently with her on the internet and also through sms. Last days since she left I have been very horny. I know there are some old friends of her around who she is going to meet. And I know some of them got the chance to stretch my wife's pussy earlier. I told her before she left that I wouldnt mind if she gave her self permission to spread her legs for one of them, but I am not quite sure she believes me. lol.

And that is the main obstacle I feel. She is not willing to let go. She really does not believe I am OK with it. But I am. I think. I am! I have been trying to imagine how I would really feel seeing her sexy little body underneath another man. His hard cock banging in to her. She digging her heels in to his butt. Screaming with pleasure.... And the only feeling I get is excitement. Not jealousy. I get a very big hard-on and want her so. Because I am safe with our love. That is why. I dont feel this other guy as a threat to our relationship, but rather someone who is causing pleasure to my wife. And me.

I feel totally different about it when it comes to her seeing other men without me knowing about it or getting emotionally involved. Then I feel the jealousy creeping in. I need it to be totally out in the open and for pure physical satisfaction only. What would be a real downer is if she bonked another guy because I dared her to, and then failed to tell me about it because she thought I would get hurt. Oh no! lol.

I just thought of something she told me before she left. Just before we met, she had once gotten an offer of bonking one of her friends husbands. She was told by her friend that her husband fancied her and the wife would not mind him fucking her. She was totally surprised by this, and didnt answer either yes or no. As the weeks went by she fantasized more and more about the husband who was very good looking and a nice person. And she said she would had done it if she hadn't met me. Oh if only I met her some years before, I would have let her. lol. Unfortunately they have got jobs abroad now or else we would have gotten in touch. My wife admits that thinking about him still makes her very wet and we have fantasized about him banging her the last times we made love. And that turns her on. And me.

I really hope the first couple of times I will be there to watch. That is half the fun I imagine. Be there and share the moment with her. Even if I get a big hard on now thinking of her slowly sucking one of her old lovers, making him cum all over her small breasts with the big hard nipples. I really hope she does it. And enjoys it. And tells me!